Thursday, July 5, 2012
But, it's true.
I feel as if God really planted some seeds in our minds and hearts and here we are still reaping them. One by one. I keep recognizing and understanding areas of my life that I need to fully surrender and work on.
Things that only I can change.
Things that I am only accountable for.
I'm not an adventurous person. I'm just not. I'm perfectly content in ritual and the mundane.
Bored yet? (my jab at humor)
I suppose I am adventurous in my very own way. I'm not in the mood to apologize for that area of my make-up.
But, I am here to say that I feel inspiration and adventure (in probably it's shallowest form) welling up in me as of late.
It's time for me to start pursuing the things that God has for me. And I do believe He has something for me. And for you.
For all of us.
The question is: are we (am I) brave enough, bold enough, crazy enough, adventurous enough to go running after it?
I mean that.
I struggle with that.
But, I know my Jesus knows that.
He knows exactly where I am at. He knows exactly how analytical I am.
How I'm not one to run after things.
He knows that I am not as adventurous as some.
He knows that I sometimes lack a great deal of confidence in myself.
And I'm glad He knows exactly where I'm at.
I know He can use me in spite of all of it.
And as He lights that fire under my feet and I begin to stumble and pick up speed. The adventure becomes intimidating. The path uncertain.
But, in the distance I can see a faint version of me. The one that I was created to be.
Doing the things I was made to do.
And so I go.